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Sorry, but there isn't much of what most people would consider a well done bibliography. Realize that this did not start as a scientific study really. I started it in Junior High School. It was simply an obsession. Science was the vector I found. The timing in science and society was perfect and I had just the right instructors at just the right times. I grew up in the time of Apollo and the many revolutions of the time. Science was king with unlimited promise. Free thinking was accepted. That worked for me, but I also had a religious background from a person who knew science as well. I could go on. I was an unusual person in an unusual situation. So much I represent a fusion of many things that were the social forces of the time. Most are already gone. Still, the books were my biggest source of information and ideas. They remain. Lets see what a list I can make of books and experiences that have taught me what I know.
Influences There are some peculiar things that should be mentioned, because they effected how my conclusions were reached and perhaps even what they are. These factors work together in a way to complex for me to really figure out, but they sure did confuse the issue at the time. I am big. I am big and very strong. By age 13 I was far bigger than most adults and into weight training. This effects your social situation. Partly, no one knows what to do with you. Partly it can put the focus of alpha competition on you. Of course just to make things interesting, I naturally tend towards little self-confidence and am quite capable of self-sabotage. That may sound odd and is a real nuisance in general, but in ways, it made me open to information. My ego did not get in the way as much as it might have. At the same time it completely messes with any social behavior based on social aggression. There is a fair amount of that when you are young, though it is usually unnoticeable unless there is something to cause conflict or social disorder. Something like a physically dominant person without any interest in or understanding of social dominance. I had a hard time understanding my peers, largely because I had a hard time understanding myself. Just to make my size more noticeable, I bounce around like a small child. Most of my life I have had the energy of a 5 year old. Also, like 5 year old, much of that energy came out of my mouth. My energy is really the determining factor. It is what produced this book. It is what has driven most of my friends and acquaintances nuts. Better still, I am naturally over stimulated. Well, what is about the most stimulating thing for a human? An initial social encounter. If I find you interesting, you may just kick me over that edge into over stimulated un-intelligibility. Many people think that I don't listen. Some people that have known me longer have figured out that if you tell me something, I am probably not ignoring it as it seems, I am recording it for later consideration. It is small consolation at the time, but it shows that I tend to think slow and deep and do anything I can that will drive people crazy. I was an electrician for many years. That gave me the uninterrupted years I needed to think about human ecology. I could plan my course and then work for hours without needing to think about it much. |